Setting Fire to Facebook….Why I Deactivated My Account

This morning (Monday, August 22, 2022) I woke up to several concerned messages that my main Facebook account had been hacked.

Indeed it had. My initial response was

“Ope, ok, that’s it, I’m leaving”.

But it wasn’t that easy, because the second voice reminded me of “everything I COULD/ MIGHT lose” if I left the social media platform that is a literal world of its own.

So, I chose for now to deactivate the account….. here’s why:

I’m sure there are pictures and things that I would like to save before I delete it completely, and I want to see what kind of temptations my brain brings forward to lure me back to a false security.

I want to share with you some of the thoughts that have been slewing in my head lately, because maybe you have had some of them too.

Maybe you have felt this way lately about the whole social media world as well.

I uninstalled the Facebook app from my phone around spring time, because I noticed that I was obsessively scrolling and letting it be a huge distraction from my life and my priorities.

I also found myself engaging in ways that were out of integrity, so I made it only available to me on my laptop. It helped.

I have been struggling lately to see the value that social media is adding to my personal and professional life. When I refer to social media I am specifically referring to Facebook first, Instagram second, and that is what my experience is primarily based off of, peppered in with some YouTube and Pintrest….

I don’t feel “connection” like I used to there.

I desire more intimate relationships than what is available for me on those platforms.

I don’t desire to be tethered to that world, to up keep the replies, and “keep up” with groups.

I don’t want to feel obligated to share and support my friends’ business in that way and I waste hours scheduling posts for my own business about upcoming events only to have it be seen by less that 100 people.

I loathe the divisiveness that unfurls in comment sections and infiltrates the feeds.

It’s not all bad right? I have initially connected with some amazing people through these platforms, however most of the rest of the connection was built elsewhere.

I have learned some stuff and was connected to events or things that maybe I wouldn’t have seen otherwise.

Who knows though?

I believe if it is truly meant for me, it will find it’s way to me. Be it a new client, a new opportunity, or a new friend.

So there was still REAL resistance when I initially wanted to delete the whole GD thing.

“What if I become irrelevant and unknown altogether?”

“How do I stay ‘in the loop’ without it?”

“How will I reach people without it?”

“What does my daily life look like without that task/distraction/scroll breaks?”

And that’s when I realized I HAD to leave. I was in a place that I was perceiving no other options, because it’s been made SO EASY.

I can email people. I can text and converse. I can still private message. I can sit across from someone. I can share through my website. I can do so many other things that will maybe seem like they require more effort (I don’t believe it will and I believe it will be more rewarding personally and professionally), in the end the result is a more powerful, authentic, and unfiltered connection amongst humans.

I HAD to leave because I was being held there by FEAR! Freedom can be a scary thing, but I’ve been working hard lately to look at fear as intel and catalyze it with breath and movement to cultivate courage and continue to call my power back.

So this was another practice opportunity. Can I sit in the discomfort of NOT KNOWING so that I can feel freedom from fear?

I also realized on the way to dropping my daughter off to school, that I may or may not have asked Kali to be with me as I transition my life and business, to burn away anything that is not needed……like that did not take long.

If there is one thing I have learned about working with the archetypal energy of Kali is that I do not call on her if I am not ready to be fiercely and honestly loved and have the courage to take any action that is being asked of me as she moves through my life showing me what is not needed, what needs to be ended in the name of rebirth.

So when I realized she had arrived, and was showing me what needed to fall away…. I still hesitated, but I did it any ways. DEACTIVATED!

We are all being asked to do this in some way or another in our lives right now.

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Purify toxins, release old baggage….all the stereotypical terms the spiritual community now over utilizes to sell.

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We are being asked to stoplooking outside of ourselves for what it is we want in life.

We are programmed to do everything BUT look inside ourselves during

crises.

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are being shown the false realities that we were emerged in, engaged in, and have the absolute power to opt out of.

You get to decide what your reality is.

I know it doesn’t feel like it sometimes, but when you start unsubscribing to the things that are comfortable, easy, or just there, you start to experience personal freedom.

When you start to question and look for new ways of doing things in your own life, the possibilities start to show up.

And if you are willing to utilize a little action and push past fear, you will see the world of your dreams unfold in front of your eyes.

Sounds like a fairytale, or a load of crap sometimes right?

But I’m here to tell you, it’s not. As much as my conditioned “thinking brain” wants to call bull shit on it all, my sweet ‘lil heart and mighty big soul tell me otherwise.

And if there ANYTHING I’ve learned on this Earth with my time is that a little healing goes a long way and FIRST listen to the heart and soul BEFORE the mind.